I have also recently discovered a whole new extension of my family. People I never really knew before who were suddenly there, a whole huge room full of them, all happy and smiling and welcoming and sharing the same values and beliefs as me. And I couldn't even really enjoy it because the whole time I was fighting back tears at the realization of what I've been missing out on my whole life. I wanted to take pictures of everyone but it felt almost as if I was going to ruin the moment if I did. And now I want to get to know them all better but I'm apprehensive about inserting my family and my life into theirs all of a sudden. I don't know what it is that is holding me back. Maybe it's because I have a hard time with change and I'm nervous about stepping beyond the place where I've made myself comfortable. Maybe I think too much.
I am constantly in awe of the things that music can do for me. When I am sad, frustrated, overwhelmed, nervous, scared, thankful, happy, or *insert other emotions here*, my favorite thing to do is think of a song that captures that emotion and sing it. I recently realized that whenever I am in the car by myself I choose to do one of two things - pray out loud or sing. And a lot of times they feel like the same thing.
One of the best pieces of advice I can give to those who are planning their wedding is this: hire a professional photographer. Because even if that one family member who takes pictures is going to be there, they might just want to be family and not take a lot of pictures. Or maybe they'll never get around to giving you the pictures. Hypothetically speaking, maybe the film containing pictures from your wedding day will get lost. Or maybe you won't want to ask about your pictures because you're not paying for them, so you don't get to see them until forever later. (If they don't lose the film, that is.) Or maybe 21 years after your wedding you'll go to an uncle's funeral and be given pictures that your uncle took at your wedding luncheon. Pictures you had never seen before. But it's best not to wait 21 years and just hope to happen upon some of your wedding photos. It's best to spend the money on a good photographer because you're never going to be able to capture that day again.
My mom, my husband, me, my dad
with my siblings
mama, me, pop
(Thanks for the pictures, Uncle LaVerne. What a treasure!)